toothaches and falling stars

I’ve never really believed how much trouble one toothache could cause a person, now I’m beginning to believe it would be enough to end the world. Darned growing molars, can’t they just pop up without causing agony and suffering?

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It’s Christmas in just, uhm, ten days time. I don’t really feel Christmas-y… well, I never really do. It doesn’t really help that the last few hours/minutes of precious sleep you can have before work is savagely disturbed by kids banging around metal cans or strung up and flattened bottle caps wailing wrongly-worded Christmas songs to the top of their off-tune voices. I’m not a Scrooge just normal I guess. Christmas to me has become more like a children’s holiday. Yeah, I know about the real reason for all the celebration, I just think that it is something solemn and personal that does not really rely on what date it already is on the calendar. I’m justifying myself.

I’m trying to look for something to really look forward to this season. I guess the couple of days off work would be enough. I can’t wait to go get gifts for people though, if only we could get the crowds off the malls and stuff. Plus, it would help a lot if I actually have an idea of what to give.

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I guess it’s pretty sad when the most wonderful thing you look forward to on days off is the fact that you could sleep as much as you want. Contrary to popular belief, I do sleep. I love sleep. If I would be honest, I probably get more than enough sleep. Not too hard when enough sleep means 4 hours of restless catatonia. I just feel so lazy lately that the hassle of actually leaving bed to pursue a life seems so tiring and pointless. I mean, the afternoons are cool if not cold and raining and being at malls or in public is always crowded and frustrating. It’s just so sad, I know.

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There was a short meteor shower tonight. I watched it with Xian after he treated me to a softdrink to join him while smoking. It was beautiful and amazing. I felt like a child seeing the world for the first time. Xian won’t stop singing ‘When you wish upon a star…’ It was nice. Just when you think everything in the world is bleak and expected it surprises you.

fields of gold

Fields of Gold

Sung by Eva Cassidy

Lyrics by Sting

You'll remember me, when the west wind moves
Among the fields of barley
You can tell the sun in it's jealous sky
When we walked in fields of gold

So she took her love for to gaze a while
Among the fields of barley
In his arms she fell as her hair came down
Among the fields of gold

Will you stay with me, will you be my love
Among the fields of barley
And you can tell the sun in it's jealous sky
When we walked in fields of gold

I never made promises lightly
There've been some that I've broken
But I swear in the days still left
We will walk in fields of gold

We'll walk in fields of gold

Many years have past, since those summer days
Among the fields of barley
See the children run as the sun goes down
As you lie in fields of gold

You'll remember me when the west wind moves
Among the fields of barley
You can tell the sun in it's jealous sky
When we walked in fields of gold

When we walked in fields of gold
When we walked in fields of gold

I woke up this evening to this song. It was beautiful. It’s rare for me to sleep deeply and waking up with this on the radio somehow lessened the regret of needing to open my eyes to face another long night. I can still feel the song echoing inside my mind like a heart wrenching last song syndrome. The ethereal voice calming and soothing. I need to get a copy of this.

for all

May the road rise up to meet you,
May the wind be always at your back,
May the sun shine warm upon your face.
May the rain fall soft upon your fields
And until we'll meet again,
May God hold you in the palm of his hand.

- Old Celtic Verse

career blues

lately, under the sheer insecurity of not knowing what i'm supposed to be in my life, i opted to go check the internet to see what amazing insight it could give to my dillemma.

let's see how this works...

***Your Career Type: Investigative***

You are precise, scientific, and intellectual.
Your talents lie in understanding and solving math and science problems.

You would make an excellent:

Architect - Biologist - Chemist
Dentist - Electrical Technician - Mathematician
Medical Technician - Meteorologist - Pharmacist
Physician - Surveyor - Veterinarian

The worst career options for your are enterprising careers, like lawyer or real estate agent.

What's Your Ideal Career?
http://www.blogthings.com/idealcareerquiz/

i answered all questions as honestly as possible. i have had no desire, ever, in my life to be any of those stuff... oh well, i never expected it to be accurate.