It frustrates me to no end that I seem to have no talent in something that I want to do for the rest of my life. But what is talent? Who decides if you have it or not? A lot of well-wishers and friends would probably argue that I do have some skill… but then again they’re friends, not that I don’t trust their opinions it’s just that I don’t trust their opinions… hahaha
While ‘blog-jumping’ as I guess it’s called, I realized how many talented people there really are in the world. Much as I would like to be associated in their ranks, it suddenly seems to be a disgrace for me to think that I could actually compare. What was that in Desiderata about not comparing yourself to others? I don’t feel vain or bitter, I feel undeserving of existence.
I am being overly dramatic. I am also being cowed over, wow-ed and bludgeoned by my apparent lack of things to say or a weird, funky fun way of saying things. I’m wallowing in self-pity… see that murky thing in the middle of the nowhere trying but failing to blend in with the shadows or melt to a puddle of icky goo-like substance, that’s me wallowing.
Why am I doing this anyway? I forgot the reason I actively signed up to air my grievances and a detailed declamation of my boring existence to this very captive if not invisible and imaginary audience. I seriously can’t remember and too lazy to dig it out. Anyway, I seem to find this fun every once in a while when the elusive thing called sense visits upon me.
This is, for certain, not one of those times.
5 comments:
wow! i never really thought someone took me this seriously. don't worry this is merely a frustrated rant.
thanks though.
Talent is relative. I think I have a talent is singing but other people say otherwise, but that doesn't stop me from grabbing the mic in every videoke session i chance upon. LoL
Tom
parang nalungkot naman ata ako nung nabasa kong iniisip mong wala kang talent. parang tinakwil mo na kaming mga fans mo na patuloy na naniniwala at sumusuporta sa'yo. woohoo go sam!
ayus! parang gusto kong kumanta ng 'i get by with a little help from my friends...'
salamat lenlen at tom (kung sino ka man...)
hehe, I used to believe na may talent ako, at marami akong talent, but then mas maraming pagkakataong na-o-overcome ako ng takot, ng katigasan ng ulo, ng kung anu pa mang pangit na habits ko, na-realize ko tuloy na ang pinaka-magandang talent eh yung attitude,at meron ka non, pumapasok ka kahit may sakit,hindi ka napapagod matuto at akchuli "bisyo" mo nga ang matuto,pag ginusto mo ginagawa mo,at tamad ka tamarin,talent in its purest form yung meron ka no?
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