cliff jumping freak?

Ok. I know I probably should be doing something else rather than waste time in this but everything gets pretty boring after more than eight hours staring at a unsympathetic pc who couldn’t care less if you’re nursing a migraine. I’m ranting, indulge me.

Anyway, I finally got myself that pc at home (hurrah for me!). Suddenly I feel like everything is so darned easy to achieve once you just ignore everything else and just ride along whatever happens, somehow you’d always get where you wanted to be (or you could make up enough reasons to justify wherever in hell you end up). It made no sense but I’m sticking to it. After another milestone, pathetic as it seems, in my unglamorous life, the question begs to be answered… what’s next?

Alas! This reckless (?) abandon to life’s whims could not suffice this relentless waiting for the sweet succor of eternal silence (just gotta have that alliteration, didn’t work out that much though…)

Indeed, what is next? I mean, so now I have my own computer, I could finally say I have done something substantial with what I earn. So, what else do I do…?

The normal person in me irritatingly suggests that I finally stop procrastinating and either drag myself back to school immediately or start doing what I’ve long wanted to do and quit being a wuss about everything and just jump of the cliff of uncertainty (or just any cliff, preferably those that fall on ragged rocks with vultures cicrling in greedily). Of course, I’ve never even approached normalcy but sometimes the rational voice screaming in your head could be very, very hard to ignore. Hmmm… nursing a migraine… screaming voices in my head… that explains this nagging head ache… better that than to face the scary and very probable option that I could probably be crazy… *dududum…*