toothaches and falling stars

I’ve never really believed how much trouble one toothache could cause a person, now I’m beginning to believe it would be enough to end the world. Darned growing molars, can’t they just pop up without causing agony and suffering?

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It’s Christmas in just, uhm, ten days time. I don’t really feel Christmas-y… well, I never really do. It doesn’t really help that the last few hours/minutes of precious sleep you can have before work is savagely disturbed by kids banging around metal cans or strung up and flattened bottle caps wailing wrongly-worded Christmas songs to the top of their off-tune voices. I’m not a Scrooge just normal I guess. Christmas to me has become more like a children’s holiday. Yeah, I know about the real reason for all the celebration, I just think that it is something solemn and personal that does not really rely on what date it already is on the calendar. I’m justifying myself.

I’m trying to look for something to really look forward to this season. I guess the couple of days off work would be enough. I can’t wait to go get gifts for people though, if only we could get the crowds off the malls and stuff. Plus, it would help a lot if I actually have an idea of what to give.

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I guess it’s pretty sad when the most wonderful thing you look forward to on days off is the fact that you could sleep as much as you want. Contrary to popular belief, I do sleep. I love sleep. If I would be honest, I probably get more than enough sleep. Not too hard when enough sleep means 4 hours of restless catatonia. I just feel so lazy lately that the hassle of actually leaving bed to pursue a life seems so tiring and pointless. I mean, the afternoons are cool if not cold and raining and being at malls or in public is always crowded and frustrating. It’s just so sad, I know.

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There was a short meteor shower tonight. I watched it with Xian after he treated me to a softdrink to join him while smoking. It was beautiful and amazing. I felt like a child seeing the world for the first time. Xian won’t stop singing ‘When you wish upon a star…’ It was nice. Just when you think everything in the world is bleak and expected it surprises you.