mike test... hello? hello?

a dozen of times i've tried posting again. a dozen of times too, i've changed my mind for lack of things to say in my terminally boring existence.

it actually has nothing to do with anything more than plain sloth and the feeling that there is probably nothing i would want to say that would have anything to do with your life or that would add to your rapidly diminishing braincells due to radiation of staying too long in front of the tv or of computer screens. (i'm joking, i'm compelled to add.) i am a catharthic writer ever since i began to assume that i do know how to string words together to make some sense out of anything. i write to expel the evil from myself although i haven't quite written myself out to leave a blabbering blob of semihuman you need to put up with.

but enough with the gore and the stupid excuses.

hehehe. it feels so good to write agian... i mean type. my fingers are just flying through the keyboard as if there is something exaggeratedly urgent i need to spill out. i still don't know what to say.

last sunday, mae anne, highschool friend long time idol, just graduated magna cum laude from UP diliman Broadcast communication. in their batch, there were 78 cum laudes, 12 magna cum laudes and 2 summa cum laudes just for the college of mass communication. it suddenly made me feel a lot like stupid. i didn't even pass the upcat! that sunday, i learned the meaning of true friendship, humbling, funny and sweet... a true friend is the person who would attend your graduation and be happy enough to be your official phtographer and/or videographer, let you bask in the moment with less hassle of minding the minute details like that. all in the name of true friendship. the recognition for honor students of mass comm supposedly starts at 6:30, i was there 6:45, way earlier than the person i was supposed to be attending the graduation with. the university graduation was at 3pm, it finished about 7:30 or something, the whole day i was there. i loved it! hehehe

other things. this is proving to be a day for surprises. i just learned that one of my best and longest friend in highschool is engaged! i mean... WHOA! imagine that!

all this suddenly makes me think... where have all the days gone? it seems to be just yesterday when we were marching out our own graduation to make a stand and now, almost everyone is graduating again this time for the real world. what have i done with my life? while my friends have reached the first steps to their dreams and are there taking on life and LIVING, what am i doing? what do i have to show for myself? what am i?

heck, up to now, i still have no idea.